Overcoming the fear of writing out loud...

I am afraid, I think I have always been afraid, afraid of ending alone...
This is probably the first time I dare say it out loud, or in this case write it out.
I am afraid of not finding someone to love that loves me back, a partner in crime, a partner for love; and understanding, caring, partner.
I want to be a couple, I want to have a plus one, I want to love and be loved.
I though that if I didn't think about it, if I didn't act like I care, if I didn't focus on it, then it wouldn't matter if I hadn't find it. But it matters, because it doesn't matter if I act like I don't care o pretend I don't think about, I still want it for me.
And that is why it is scary, the thought of wanting something that is out of your hands and it may get here late, I am afraid to say it out loud, but I do, I want somebody to love...
But there it is, I am afraid of ending alone, I don't want to end alone, I want to love somebody that loves me back, I want to have a partner, to be a couple, to have somebody that has eyes only for me, someone for me...

I am feeling the blank...

Lately I have been thinking about recreating myself, because I no longer feel like before, maybe it is time to change the name of my blog to actual state. I am feeling stronger and happier. So I'll think about where I want to go from here and probably start walking that way, in the meanwhile here are the blanks filled!

linking up with Lauren from the little things we do

1.  My bedtime routine includes,  brushing my teeth (eventually), taking my make-up off, and depending my mood I'll watch some tv while falling asleep, or read an amazingly romantic or funny book and then dreaming away.

2.   I am  who I am, people don't change. I am a loving, creating, funny woman. Yes, modest too.  .

3.  I can't stand  dishonesty   because   more times that not, truth solves it all.

4. My idea of relaxation would be  a massage, then some resting with a daiquiri .

5. If I had an extra $50, I would    save them for my photo equipment or my so wanted trip to California!  .

6. The best thing about a bloggy friend is   they don't judge you because of how you look, they care about you because of who you are.

7.  A recipe I've been dying to try is a vodka pasta sauce! .

Cali Friday

This is my first Friday back in Cali, and I have to say I mi ss a bit of NY. But soooon I'll be off so let's make the best out of this beautiful hot week!!!

 I'm linking up with the little things we do

 

 

 

1.   The most selfless thing I've ever done was     I'll probably have to say that when I help someone, anyone at all I do it selflessly, I like helping people for the sake of seeing them accomplish or solve their problems .

2.   When it comes to working out   I lo ve martial arts and dancing, sometimes also yoga, but I hate treadmills!      .

3.  A woman should always  Be happy! with herself and not look for approval in others, we are strong and beautiful as we are   .

4. I wish I could    have an editor to rely on for my documentaries! it would make everything easier   .

5.  A best friend is   one that you could talk about everything, that you can argue with, that you can have fun, that you can be in silence with, one that ones when to hug you and when to not literally but that knows when to slap you .

6.  I can't get enough of     lo ve and hugs from people   .

7.  This weekend I am    going to edit and enjoy time with friends before my oversees adventures!  .

letters

write, written, wrote, will write...

Writing a letter that doesn't narrate your day, that goes beyond matters, that is worth to be written but more than that, that it is worth reading, that is the real challenge...
When you can write a letter to the person that is laying next to you, the same person that shared the day with you, a letter worth reading... that is when perfection is accomplished, and there is nothing more but to keep writing...